fake it.

okay,
i don't really know what it is actually.

to be mad or not to be.

"hey, chill lah, bukan selalu dia hang out sendiri sendiri pun kan. lagi punnnnn. hari hari jumpa kot. ta kan ta puas tatap mke dia lg kot."

on the other side,

"GERAAAAAAAAAAAAAM NYA! da ada trip yg buley melibatkan kami. nk jugak dia ikut trip yg satu lg. eh tpe tpe. dduk library lg bagus. air-cond. and ada kesedaran diri nk belajar pd weekends. isk."

why should i be mad?

"if awal awal da taw org ta ley nk ikut, den dun ask me whether i want to go out wit you ke ta earlier uh. diam diam je la. ta pun. ckp la nk g mana, BUT jgn la menggatal g tnye and ckp nk ajk ke apa"

in the end,

"i'm the one, yg duk dlm bilik listening to mandy moore, doing my rugby instructions thingy, and frustrating over this very particular, unimportant thing, which i should not be worrying about.geramnya. rasa cm org bodoh je pk psl mnde ta berpekdah niy."

AND, wth. lantak dia la nk wt pe dia ske. bukannya dia husband aku ke apa. so, he's free to do wateva dat he wants. so, shut up, and be happy with wateva ur doing in ur room now. if u do meet up wit him later. just act as if nothin had happened. okay, hannah?. just fake it.

"ah, geram geram geram geram lagiiiiiiiiii"